I’ve thought long and hard about the best way to reintroduce my blog into my life and indeed yours, and I’ve come to the conclusion that if it shows up on your newsfeed or search you might have a little read, but if it doesn’t you’re none the wiser and tbh you don’t really care either way. But I care when it sits there empty.
This little corner of the net has always been about juggling, about careers and priorities and the me in mummy. It’s always swayed between motherhood and self discovery. One month consumed by my role at home, the next debating if I’ve lost myself. We have made some design tweaks to the site, those who have been here before will note how much fresher it’s looking. Part of that process required me to reread all of my posts from the past 4 years and what have I learnt?
I’ve realised my writing isn’t too bad, I pour over posts for day as a time trying get it perfect and I’m never 100% happy with the final product, I have so many drafts that I deemed too mediocre to publish, yet reading them back they’re better than I considered them to be at the time, what a shame. I also realised that I’m someone who makes plans, who feels the pressure to have it all and is constantly pulled between the roles of motherhood and career woman, driven mainly by guilt from which ever one I feel I’m neglecting most.
At this present moment I guess you could say, I’m unemployed! For the first time in over ten years, I no longer have a monthly pay cheque, this scares me slightly, my freelance work has never been my sole income before, but now here I am, resurrecting my blog hoping that if I could just make it a success I can combine the two areas of my life and finally feel settled in a career and as a mother.
But what of our brood? Well when I left I was 30 weeks pregnant and now. Now we have a beautiful 9 month old baby boy! Gulliver was born by emergency c-section on July 27th last year. He’s my blue eyed boy!!! If you’re new or need to reacquaint with my content, here is our latest Sunday walk….. but this time, I didn’t just snap away, I also filmed. this whole role combining shenanigans includes setting up my own YouTube channel and I’m so very excited to once again share our adventures with you all.